..i feel like blogging
...i feel like blogging
umm mostely i dont feel like, even i planned to blog umm daily lol at least weekly
but my life here is in chaos
the reason i started this, been bc well ppl i really care for, live damn fare away
and its hard to keep in touch
bc daily routine here
so i wanted to share
and i'm not the person who shares all her "emo"thoughts to the world
well i dont mind if ppl do
but i'm not like that
i'm more into sharing happy thoughts
but lately
i'm not that much happy so i dont have to share much happyness...........
to be honest i just work, sleep, eat and work
to get away from here
this been a nice place to me for a little while
i met old friends again when i came here to this town
i had good jobs
n finally i had a boyfriend and a nice little house with nice roomates in the center of city
i wasnt that much here bc always busy
but i felt home
lately it turned into i dont know
everything went wrong
first i was happy to find back my old friend from childhood
we made plans n wanted to saddle down with own companys
but well, to tell what happend would take hours or days
so all i can say is
its sooo sad to see someone lie all day
not little lies
life lies
to see someone living a lie or more
there is nothing real left
the moment she opens hher mouth
its a lie
and its soooo out of control
you can tell me 2457487 times sorry and promise to start over new
i cant trust in
and if i'd ask you about the date today... you'd lie
even there is no reason
i have no time and energy to think bout the reasons
bc there are NONE
well one person is not fitting in my life, doesent sound for a reason to leave
but its not all...........
boyfriend broke up with me, for no reason
he never told....
well i dont want to complain bc maybe my faults
i planned to leave here in october
but canceled plans bc boyfriend and yes the ppl i trusted in
now i'm still here bout the reason why i stayed is gone
my best friend is gone since month from here
roomate moved away
and so yes
i'm alone here
its gettting cold n heater not works
i hate sundays bc i have mostely no jobs
and hate beeing here on my own
so i work and sleep and work
to get away from here
so well i guess this explains my mood
i'm actually not motivated to keep in touch with ppl n stuff
not bc i dont care
just bc i hate complain
and i dont have happy thoughts to share
but since i'm pretty much on my own here
i might have more time for blogging XD
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